Psalms 45 * 47, 48; Joshua 8:1-22; Romans 14:1-12; Matthew 26:47-56I have been struck with writer's block lately. I don't think this block is because I find our Daily office readings uninteresting, or un-provoking, as they are the exact opposite of those those two words. I am, simply put, in a transition period of my life in regard to employment and am on a personal roller coaster ride emotionally, and am trying to be circumspect in regard to allowing those emotions to seep into my writings here.
We are immersed in Joshua's story of the conquest of the promised land, today with the second try of conquering the town of Ai. The first failed because of betrayal by a few people, to which Joshua lay prone before the ark of the covenant begging forgiveness and guidance. In Matthew today, we have Judas' betrayal of Jesus. This act follows yesterday's account of Jesus praying to God for relief and than for strength to face whatever may come his way.
Centering ourselves in prayer in times of loss and betrayal, asking God's help to deal with raging emotions, is an important aspect of remaining faithful. Asking for help is another. I ask for prayers to give me strength to face what is coming and to be cognizant enough to discern an appropriate way forward.
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Living through the midst of chaos does not allow any perspective for public writing.
ReplyDeleteDuring those times the writing needs to stay personal and private, which I would encourage you to continue doing. It will help in sorting through it all.
You will continue to be in my prayers and I hope you find something sooner rather than later. Let me know if you just need to get together and talk.
Bruce
Wishing you well as you discern. I know I felt deeply connected with you as you visited us. You will be a wonderful blessing to your next parish. I much enjoy your introspection. Wait... is that even a word? I love the way you delve into the readings, mull over your thoughts and present them in a way that always brings a nugget of understanding to me. Prayers and joy to you!
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